Sunday, 9 January 2011

Ninth

Wow, another 2 months and I'm updating again. I'm terrible at remembering passwords. What's new with me?

I'm going to Germany in June, I'm possibly going to Belgium in December, and I'm sorting myself out. I'm decluttering the flat, I'm improving my health, both physical and mental, and I'm letting myself get involved with things again.

I'm adopting a kitten in march. We were meant to be adopting 2, but I have been thinking it through financially, and I think it's best to only adopt one, so I can give 2 a good life, rather than perpetually struggle with 3. Hence the only having 1 kid! (That and the fact her dad didn't even want the 1, so a 2nd kid was out of the question totally.)

I'm slowly getting my zine together, and will start putting it "out there" very soon. I don't think I'm going to be going to the London Zine Symposium this year, for financial reasons (mainly that the £30/40 I would spend on zines/travel/food that day will be going towards my holiday instead), but I'll definately be popping across to the Brighton Zine Fair in Feb.

I got some nice new clothes at christmas, and I feel happy wearing them :) (That is all. 2010 had a bit of the boredoms about it)

Monday, 11 October 2010

I am terrible at remembering to update this thing.
It's monday, Abbie's dad is over later on today, I've got a ton of housework and it's badgers this evening. can i have a few extra hours in the day please?

Thursday, 12 August 2010

Seventh

Oh my word, I'm strangely emotional today. I cried watching Nanny 911, I cried watching Pom Poko, and I cried when Abbie sang to me. It's quite strange really, I try not to cry too much, but today I'm like a leaky tap.

Tomorrow a guy from Greencycle Brighton is coming over to collect my spare washing machine tomorrow, and then I'm going to ask my Daddy to plumb my new one in. Hurrah! I like being able to help out. The washing machine that's going came from Crawley Freecycle about 5 years ago, so it's carrying on the circle of life.

I'm not sure what's going on this weekend. Abbie's father is due to visit, but as per usual, with 48 hours left before he's due to arrive, I've heard nothing. I'm too bored of repeating the same complaint though. He won't change. He's always been a self centred little berk.

Sunday, 11 July 2010

Sixth

So. I managed to dismantle Abbie's bed without major injury. One trapped finger was the only casualty of singlehandedly demolishing a bed that had taken 2 people to put together. Within the next 24 hours Abbie will have her brand new (to her, but actually 1940s vintage) bed, once more peace (and seperate bedrooms) will be with us.

Have offered a few things on Lewes Freegle today in the hope of decluttering, and plan on filling up my fathers car boot with charity shop offerings in the week, to be taken to the Age UK/Cancer Research shops in town. Decluttering is destressing for me, I am determined to sort out my habitual pack-ratted-ness.

Friday, 9 July 2010

Fifth

Forgot to add earlier. I'm 26 now. I'm closer to 30 than 20 and I'm only mentioning for numerical value, not that I give a crap about numbers. I had a...birthday. I always feel selfish for feeling.. underwhelmed on my birthday. I try to make as much effort as I can for other people, and not that I expect anything in return, but I would like a big party and a fuss I think. (Though in actuality, I'm cripplingly shy in big groups of people and would probably hate such a fuss).

I didn't go to the Brighton Zine Fest this year because I felt nervous about going on my own, but I think I'm going to ask (one of) my brother(s) to babysit and possibly my dad too so that I can go to as much of it next year as possible. As always there will be sofa-age, or the other half of my big bed should friends want to attend (please. I don't want to do it alone. I feel like a (fat) sore thumb amongst people)

I used to have a crush on Liam Gallagher when I was 13. Watching Oasis performing I am the walrus from those days back when on tv reminded me of this somewhat.

Fourth

Wow, I've been away for a while, I've felt disassociated with a lot of things lately, It's quite hard to describe my feelings. I've been stressed, distressed too. Wow, cheerfulness.

I feel lonely, but happy with it, I don't know quite where my brain is going, I only seem to have these little bursts of thought lately.

I'm looking forward to new DVDs coming soon (My Beautiful Laundrette (without dutch subs that confuse me), Tipping The Velvet and a new copy of Harry Potter and the Philosophrs stone because Abface and I wore the original out!)

Have BBC4 on now, with Elton John doing a fab cover of "I saw her standing there"

Abbie's new bed comes on Monday, and I'm so excited. Once that's in, I can start organising everything again. I think life had started to drive my crazy.

Thursday, 17 June 2010

Third

Today the post gods were benevolent towards me. I recieved Issues 4 & 5 of Fight Boredom from Hello Amber which I prompty sat down and pored over. I feel really positive after reading them, and I want to get out and do so much stuff. I also recieved a package from a penpal in America, and a postcard from Postcrossing. Fabulous post day!

There's now 10 days to my birthday which sounds so strange, since it still doesn't feel as though New Year was all that long ago. I still don't have plans for my day, it's a sunday, and if it's a sunny day I might take cakes down to the paddock or the grange for a picnic. I don't feel as though I'm in my mid 20s. It's strange. 3.20pm yesterday was 10 years from the moment I left secondary school, but parts of me still feel as though I belong there.

I saw my Grandmother in hospital yesterday. I'm glad to see that she's getting better. My Aunty had said they were half expecting to be telling everyone that she had died. Nan is 76, but she's announced that she reckons she'll have another 20 or so years "left in her" which made me think hard. I'm 10 days shy of 26 and I have 75 of my grandparents around (Well, tenchnically 50% as my grandad is my stepgrandad, but I've never known anyone else... so it's 75%)... I went to school with quite a few people who had no grandparents by the time they had turned 11. I have more Grandparents alive than Abbie. She just has my Dad, the one grandparent. But then of course, 3 Great-grandparents. I lost my last Great-grandparent age 15, in April of 2000, and if my Nan's prediction is right then Abbie will be my age when she loses that particular great-grandparent, and I will be 46 when my Nan dies... Isn't that quite something? There is longevity through my family, something that thrills me. I look forward to having a long and eventful life.

There are too many things around for me to allow myself to get bored. Even something as simple as enjoying a half hour of a TV show I like, it's fun, I'm enjoying myself, and refusing to let feelings of boredom in. I've taken to going around with notebooks in my bag just so I can write lists, write anything really.

I hope anyone who is reading has a fucking beautiful day. I'm sure you're a wonderful human being, and you'll surely deserve it.